In seven Cactus League appearances with the Brewers, Schoeneweis had a 7.71 ERA. That number can be particularly deceptive in Spring Training for left-handed specialists, because they are not used in lefty-on-lefty situations as they would be in the regular season."He did not face that many, but I am almost certain that he got every left-hander he faced out," said Brewers pitching coach Rick Peterson. "Under different circumstances, this would have been a great fit. But Mitch [Stetter] did so well last year. He was one of the left-handed guys in the game. ... Schoeneweis is an effective big league pitcher without an opportunity here." Schoeneweis signed with the Brewers on Feb. 9 after a conversation with Peterson, who was his pitching coach in 2007 and '08 with the Mets. They had another long conversation on Tuesday morning before Schoeneweis departed. Schoeneweis said he would ask his agent, Scott Boras, to seek employment elsewhere, hopefully with a team near the West Coast so he could remain close to his children. The family lives in the Phoenix area. "The positive I take out of this is I realize I can have fun again," Schoeneweis said. "I haven't had fun for a long time. I know 100 percent that I am a big league pitcher, bottom line. It would be a shame if this was it for me, because I feel like I did when I was 28. If there aren't any big league jobs out there, then I'll have to work something out that works for me and my family. I'm not going to toil around in the Minor Leagues." He made that point several times. It's the big leagues or bust for Schoeneweis, who has limited left-handed hitters to a .227 average over parts of 11 Major League seasons. "I'm a big league pitcher, and I shouldn't have to prove anything," Schoeneweis said. "This will be my 12th year in the big leagues, and I wasn't injured [last season]. I wasn't out of the game because my skills diminished. I just had to prove to myself that I wanted to play and [be sure] it was OK with my family. I am OK with all of those things. "I appreciate the platform to come in and realize those things and to realize that I am a better version of myself than I have been for the last three or four years. It's just ironic that I can't get a job because my wife died. It doesn't make much sense to me." He's going to stay in shape, and hopes a team will come calling. "My skills haven't diminished. I don't have any health issues. I was dealing with a family tragedy off the field," Schoeneweis said. "I don't know how many people could have handled it better or even attempted what I attempted last year."
Adam McCalvy is a reporter for MLB.com. This story was not subject to the approval of Major League Baseball or its clubs.